This is probably the most challenging week I have gone through thus far. Not only do I have all three classes demanding a lot out of me, but I have my General Knowledge, FTCE test on Thursday. I am studying every formula I have ever known in my life short of Calculus and trig! I am anxious for the weekend to get here and pass. I don’t know where life is going to take me at this very moment. However, I am ready to go with the flow. I wish it was as easy as following a yellow brick road…

I have to keep reminding myself that I am a strong woman, who can do all things through Christ that strengthens me… (Philippians 4:13)

I appreciate all of my friends and family that are encouraging me and helping me every step of the way.

I am…
A friend
A daughter
A person
A woman
A girl-friend
A co-worker
A future educator

I am…
Strong
Weak
Compassionate
Competitive

I love…
God
My Family
My Friends
Out Doors
The smell of the Ocean
Sundays
Me

In the future I want to…
Have a family
Succeed
Win
Love uncontrollably
Love unconditional
Help others

Things Put into Perspective

It is funny how God can put what you think may be a life altering situation and show you very quickly that you are just acting like a child. I posted earlier this week a picture of a crazy Muppet looking guy with a caption "this is how I feel"... I honestly wanted to blow up something. I attribute my anger or short fuse, if you will... to me not attending my weekly yoga class for two weeks now.

When I got to my second job and told my friend and coworker my overwhelming woes... even though they were bad, I still have a job and things were resolved. I then proceeded to ask her why she was so sad the day before when I had spoke with her, and she said, her mother had a stoke about 5 years ago and was paralyzed. Slowly over the years, the depression and the paralysis began to improve. She received a call while enjoying her spring break, that said her mom had tried to take her own life.

At that very moment, I broke down into tears. I was humbled that this 19 year old girl, came home early and was now dealing with a fragile mother. My issues seemed to melt away.

With the help of my friend and a good, hard, spin class... my blood pressure has come down and the accida (I am sure I did not spell that correct) has subsided.

Exhausted

This is how I felt this week!

Fun Picture I had saved a while back...

The Fray... a great tune.

You Found Me... By, The Fray

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything"

Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me

But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!

The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want!

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!

Why'd you have to wait to find me, to find me?

Old Poems

I was going through some of my stuff in boxes and I found an old notebook of mine with poems. Growing up, I had a notebook to write random thoughts in, instead of a diary. I would love to share some of them...

I wrote the below in 1999...

The Game Of Life

I sit here helpless

In the Super Bowl of Life.

Apart of the crowd in the bleachers,

So far away.

I wish I was Moses,

So I could part the sea of people

who stand in our way.

As you play your game of life

I sit cheering you from a far.

I want to make an impression

On your heart that last forever.

Cause I'm sick of being on the sidelines;

I'm ready for my close up!

I am sick of the one player games,

I wanna play with you;

A game of life,

for eternity.

I Never Met a Shoe I Did Not Like

As a follow up to my earlier blog, I would like to show you all the shoes I have aquired in the past 30 days... I got REALLY GREAT DEALS on all of them but two... The two I did not get for a good deal, was for a good cause... the Alzhiemers Association had a "girls night out" at White House, Black Market... I had to support the cause!!

Bealls $10 each

The "Good Cause" Shoes White House Black Market $20 each

Nike Shoes $40 at DSW

Pink Boat Shoes from Bealls $23

Madden Girl Boots, $49 from DSW

Madden Girl, DSW $11

Madden Girl, DSW $20

$11 DSW